My teaching license came in the mail today. Although I knew I earned my license last Thursday via the Minnesota Department of Education website, having that piece of paper in my hand was an entirely out of this world experience.
Earning my license was hard work. In the beginning of the year I could barely stand 5 minutes at a time. By the end of the year I was standing most of the day. Although I had some improvements in stamina I did need to sleep a lot. I slept right after school on most days. This year brought three trips to the ER; one for my inhaler, another one for back pain and yet another for taking a nasty spill and bruising my leg and pubic area. I remember barely being able to walk for a few days. I remember being in pain many days, being uncomfortable most days, and my knees being shakey at times.
Not only was there the physical toll, but I produced so much work as well. Besides planning, teaching, grading, and researching I also had to complete the edTPA and an e-folio. While there were stumbles along the way, I made it. I’m really proud of myself.
But the awesome feeling is tempered with some harsh reality. I’m still morbidly obese with a bunch of medical issues, broke and unemployed. I’m in a big financial mess. It’s like being stuck between a rock and a few other hard places.
However, that’s not the part that really bothers. What bothers me is that I’m alone. I don’t have a significant other to enjoy the moment with and the two friends I have are busy until next week. I started working out again and paying attention to what I eat. But even if I stay consistent it’ll be a couple of years before this lonely existence improves. That is so frustrating and disheartening.
I think weighing over 550 pounds, not driving and not having much money all do play a factor. We’ve all seen the looks and the behavior of people. For all the people that tell me how how awesome I am well, where are they?
Holy smokes I must’ve been tired. I wound up waking up at noon today. I was going to workout this AM but that didn’t happen. I think I need to stagger my workouts a bit. Like if I workout one day in the AM, workout the next day in the later part of the morning or early part of the afternoon. I guess it’s not a big deal if I workout every other day at first but I would like to build up to working out 5 or 6 days per week. That and being generally more active each and every day.
Needless to say I didn’t get much of anything done today. My lack of productivity the first 2 ½ weeks of summer has been annoying. Part of it is a lack of planning. part of it is just a general malaise. Then there’s the other part where I feel overwhelmed with what I have to do to get myself from out between a rock and a hard place.
Five weeks from today I start my trek to New York City. There’s so much I want to get done before then but I have to remember this journey isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon. That and I have to be consistent and keep moving forward.
I’ve been hemming and hawing about it for a while, trying to get over my hesitation but I finally made it back to the gym today. I decided to resign at the Rochester area Family Y. It’s not as affordable as say Planet Fitness or Workout World but I know the people there and they’re friendly. It’s going to go a long way to keeping me there.
Right after my workout tutored Archie’s boys for a couple of hours. They’re good kids and funny. They’re so much like their dad. I really love teaching and I’m glad for the opportunity to tutor a bit this month.
After tutoring I worked at Med City Cab for 3 hours. They wanted me to work later but the calls weren’t coming in so I got to leave early. I think next time I’m going to make sure I work a full 8 hours if they ask me to come in. It doesn’t pay to come in otherwise.
When I got done with work I went to Cafe Steam for a bit. By that time I was nearly in a vegetative state. The plan was to get some blogging done. That didn’t happen. And then I went home and didn’t accomplish a thing.
The past few days have been pretty run of the mill. I did however get a 30 minute chair massage for $5 at Apache Mall. My massage wasn’t done by a person but rather by the chair itself. While I’m sure a massage by a person would have been better, the chair massage was still incredible, much needed and appreciated.
Last week I ordered my copy of DDP Yoga. The package came in the mail yesterday. I’m very excited to start using it and hopefully heal my body.
Instead of teaching at John Adams today I went to a bullying seminar at RCTC put on for the TPC and undergraduate education students. The seminar was interesting. I have some takeaways which I can use in my classroom. On a really cool note one of the undergraduate students is the mom of one of my former Riverside students. In my last couple of weeks there I gave the kid my headphones. He still wears them even if there isn’t an MP3 Player or phone attached to it. He just loves the way they feel. Geez I miss that kid.
After the seminar I went to Steam to work on my e-folio and write up my personal statement for a reading program I want to get into. Spent the rest of the evening doing chores.