3/16/2016: Goodnight Bobby D

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Mar 17, 2016

We laid a friend to rest today. Bobby Driscoll, or as his friend called him Bobby D, passed away last Thursday. Today he was buried. This is the 2nd time we saw him in 3 months. The last time was a Sunday in December when we went to his benefit.

The service was beautiful. At the service and funeral there were a lot of big tough guys with bloodshot and watery eyes.  While it was just Fikret and I from Med City Taxi, the expansive church was nearly filled with friends, family and colleagues of Bobby’s. He was certainly a man with faults. But he was a good man who was fiercely loyal to his friends.

After the burial Fikret and I ate at Wild Bill’s Sports Saloon. We reminisced about our dear departed friend and co-worker. He touched many lives and will be missed. Goodnight, bud, we’ll see you again someday.

When we were done consuming lunch, Fikret dropped me off at Corporate Web Services (CWS) for the TEDxZumbroRiver marketing & social media meeting. We came up with a plan that’ll hopefully generate a bunch of ticket sales. The May 5th event is going to be incredible.

Around 5:30pm I had dinner with Kerk at Dooley’s. I was a little apprehensive since it was the first time in almost 2 years I’ve seen him. I admittedly get a little antsy when I saw him. Afterall, he’s been “busy” for all this time yet he’s been going out a bunch with his friends. I got a little annoyed when he said he needed some “Will time” and that we shouldn’t wait 6 months next time.I think I’ve become indifferent.

I finally watched last Sunday’s The Walking Dead. I love that show.

Learning Spanish with Rosetta Stone and Duolingo

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Sep 10, 2015

I’m half Spanish. Ok, the actual percentage is lower because I’m an exciting blend of Cuban, Spaniard, Italian, Caribbean Indian, possible African American, Indonesian, Dutch, German, French and Japanese. Wow, that’s a mouthful. For simplicity I just say I’m half Dutch and half Cuban.

I’ve been telling my family I’m going to learn Spanish someday. However, that someday keeps on getting pushed back just like every other someday. For decades I told them I would learn how to speak Spanish. I even took Spanish in high school. But we all know how that turned out.

I’ve heard about Rosetta Stone for years. I’ve heard Rosetta Stone actually offers  comprehensive set of tools to aid in language learning. But the five level set had a steep price of $499 made it impossible to afford. But then the price was reduced to about $200 and I could have a payment plan. I  thought I’d be crazy not to buy the set.

A friend of mine used an online service called Duolingo to learn Italian. He tends to hold things to a high standard so when he kept on gushing how much he loved the experience I thought I’d give Duolingo a try as well.

Well I bought the 5 level Spanish set from Rosetta Stone MONTHS ago and never touched it. But after hearing a TED talk about how to learn any language in 6 months, I decided I needed to start learning today as well as be persistent with my language learning.

Do today I installed Rosetta Stone on my computer and will practice daily to master the Spanish language.

Wish me luck!

I’ve Been Back from New York City for Almost 3 Weeks

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Sep 4, 2015

As of tomorrow evening I will have been back from New York City for 3 weeks. I made so many plans to start getting back on track but so far I have accomplished nothing I have to do. I’ve only been to the gym once, I haven’t nailed down my diet yet, and I still take cabs too much. My plans to read, study programming, and develop plans for the for and non-profits haven’t even started yet.

On a positive note, I cooked a head a bunch and have food in the freeze, I’ve de-cluttered the office some and my bedroom is fairly organized. I’ve accomplished a bunch of busy work but nothing that I would say really moved me forward.

And I’m getting the paperwork for Easter Seals together. I’ve also had time to reflect. But I need to put those reflections into action. Part of the problem is that I’ve lived a very disorganized and inefficient lifestyle. Heck my entire family is that way. And it is what it is. We also have no idea how to really succeed. We were never taught that. However, if I want to escape my situation and bit elevate myself and my family then I need to learn how to succeed and be efficient.

Ironically if given a plan I can succeed. The steps are laid out and I can make things work. Take school for example, we were given a plan for the year, we knew what we had to do. At least the milestones. We didn’t always know exactly the specifics of what we had to do, we had to figure out a bunch on our own and ask questions. But we had a plan. I don’t have a plan for my life. But I need to make one. I need to realize that while I can accomplish everything that I want, I can’t do it all at once.

What am i going to do? There are things I need to do daily. These are the goals that generally take a long time to accomplish; it can take months or years. Fat loss & getting fit, learning more about WordPress & Social Media, launching Med City Social Media, becoming learned, and learning Spanish would be longer term projects with daily tasks. Even posting on the Will’s Weigh blog must be done consistently.

But there are items that can be done later, or as time permits (but still must be done so I need to use my time wisely). These items could be learning to program, developing concept models, decluttering my office (although I should a couple of things ASAP), and revamping the Will’s Weigh Blog.

How am i going to do it? As I mentioned there are things I need to do everyday. They are:

  1. Move
    1. Ideally I want to do Crossfit 4x per week, swim, bike, and kettle bells
    2. But for now I want to build up to going to the YMCA 6 days per week, along with yoga once or twice per week and some KB work
  2. Eat “right”
    1. I need to pay attention to what I have in the house, both cooked, dry and frozen (not cooked yet)
    2. I’ll need to meal plan
    3. I’ll need to spend a day a week cooking
  3. Post for Will’s Weigh
    1. I should be able to post daily.
    2. My posts don’t have to be terribly long. They can just be DIL posts or my thoughts on a subject or an event.
    3. Keep track of weight, mug shots, and other items
    4. I’ll use EverNote, Pocket, and Feedly to collect items.
    5. Look for sites/blogs to follow
  4. Read
    1. 50 to 100 pages per day from the book list.
    2. Take notes
    3. Don’t be afraid to highlight
  5. Study social media & WordPress
    1. Lots of stuff from Udemy, Lynda, YouTube
    2. Take notes. Develop an overall plan
    3. I’m not going to be able to launch MCSM until I get a job
  6. Study Spanish
    1. It should just take an hour a day or so
    2. Use both Rosetta Stone and Duolingo
  7. Straighten up/chores
    1. Straighten up as I go along
    2. Just don’t leave anything on the floor
    3. Put things away as I don’t need them
    4. The office will take a long time. I need to be ok with that. But..
      1. Filing cabinet should be done ASAP
      2. Work on notes daily
  8. Self-sufficiency
    1. Review PDP, Learning List, Task list daily

And then there are the items that come up from day to day. I can do this. I just need to be smart about the process.

Being organized and planning ahead is also going to be important. I’m going to have to think through my day a day or two ahead of time. I want to save time and money and not always be living by the skin of my teeth. It’s going to take sacrifice but the results will be worth the effort.

Day in the Life, Wednesday 7/1/2015: I’m Beginning to Feel Alive Again

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Jul 2, 2015

My mind was lost in thought the past couple of days wondering what I’m going to do. While I have those degrees I still feel I haven’t accomplished anything. It may be weird to say but I don’t feel I’ve done what I needed to do to move my life forward.

When I went to Steam today I spoke with that one women (I forget her name) who owns Soupology. I spoke with her about te reunion and why I didn’t go. She understood. Although she wa the class President she’s never gone to hers either. We discussed my place in life, obesity, not really connecting with my classmates in the first place and not being in touch all these years.

It rained a bunch today. Actually it hailed. And it was awesome. I took a small nap. I felt alive today. It’s really the first time since I’ve been on vacation that I’ve felt alert. I can’t believe it’s taken 3.5 weeks to recover.

Day in the Life, Sunday 6/28/2015: Deep in Thought

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Jun 29, 2015

To be completely honest I’m a little bitter.  Maybe a lot. I’m glad my former classmates had a good time. I’m really more disappointed in myself. I’m thinking about where I am in life right now and realizing that my best skills is making poor life choices. Apparently I do that the best.

I have 2 Master’s degrees and a teaching license. But I have a lack of useful skills and experience. I’ve self-isolated myself due to fear, health issues, not driving, insecurities and horrible finances. I’d like to live a nice, rewarding life. But I have no idea how to turn this around.

In a much earlier post I discussed people moving on with their lives while I stay here. My former classmates have lived their lives and I’ve been stuck in a rut since I was 18. I’m at a loss for what to do. I need to work on not underestimating myself.

I worked at Med City Taxi from 3 – 11.

Day in the Life, Saturday 6/27/2015: Working at Med City Taxi

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Jun 27, 2015

I slept a good chunk of the day today in preparation for working from 5pm to 3am. I’ve been doing this since the end of December. I’ll be glad to have those 3 weekend off in August. It’s going to feel great.

During the downtime at work I found myself checking Facebook constantly and looking at the reunion pictures. I obviously want to be there.

Work was slow until 12:30 and then it was balls to the wall busy. While I’m grateful for the work I’m saddened that after all this time and effort this is what I’m doing.

Day in the Life, Friday 6/26/2015: My 25th Year High School Reunion Weekend Starts Tonight

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Jun 26, 2015

The John Marshall Class of 1990, 25th Year Reunion is this weekend. It starts tonight. And I’m not going to go. Five years ago when I went to my 20th Year Reunion it was extremely cathartic and needed. But the reunion was still lonely.

It’s not that I don’t like them. I just don’t know them. I haven’t been in touch with these people with the exception of a little Facebook time. Unfortunately there isn’t a connection there due to a lack of shared memories.

I went to City Market to buy a sandwich. On the way there I ironically helped out with one of our reunion events. I stayed at Cafe Steam well into the time the reunion was going on at Kathy’s Pub ~ just 50 feet away.

I have a need for connection. I’m just not sure how I’m going to get it.

Day in the Life, Thursday 6/25/2015: My License to Teach Has Been Approved

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Jun 25, 2015

My teaching license came in the mail today. Although I knew I earned my license last Thursday via the Minnesota Department of Education website, having that piece of paper in my hand was an entirely out of this world experience.

Earning my license was hard work. In the beginning of the year I could barely stand 5 minutes at a time. By the end of the year I was standing most of the day. Although I had some improvements in stamina I did need to sleep a lot. I slept right after school on most days. This year brought three trips to the ER; one for my inhaler, another one for back pain and yet another for taking a nasty spill and bruising my leg and pubic area. I remember barely being able to walk for a few days. I remember being in pain many days, being uncomfortable most days, and my knees being shakey at times.

Not only was there the physical toll, but I produced so much work as well. Besides planning, teaching, grading, and researching I also had to complete the edTPA and an e-folio. While there were stumbles along the way, I made it. I’m really proud of myself.

But the awesome feeling is tempered with some harsh reality. I’m still morbidly obese with a bunch of medical issues, broke and unemployed. I’m in a big financial mess. It’s like being stuck between a rock and a few other hard places.

However,  that’s not the part that really bothers. What bothers me is that I’m alone. I don’t have a significant other to enjoy the moment with and the two friends I have are busy until next week. I started working out again and paying attention to what I eat. But even if I stay consistent it’ll be a couple of years before this lonely existence improves. That is so frustrating and disheartening.

I think weighing over 550 pounds, not driving and not having much money all do play a factor. We’ve all seen the looks and the behavior of people. For all the people that tell me how how awesome I am well, where are they?

I spent most of the day at home. I did go to the Half-Barrel for dinner and to Cafe Steam afterwards and listened to some live music.

Day in the Life, Wednesday 6/24/2015: Yesterday’s Workout Destroyed Me

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Jun 24, 2015

Holy smokes I must’ve been tired. I wound up waking up at noon today. I was going to workout this AM but that didn’t happen. I think I need to stagger my workouts a bit. Like if I workout one day in the AM, workout the next day in the later part of the morning or early part of the afternoon. I guess it’s not a big deal if I workout every other day at first but I would like to build up to working out 5 or 6 days per week. That and being generally more active each and every day.

Needless to say I didn’t get much of anything done today. My lack of productivity the first 2 ½ weeks of summer has been annoying. Part of it is a lack of planning. part of it is just a general malaise. Then there’s the other part where I feel overwhelmed with what I have to do to get myself from out between a rock and a hard place.

Five weeks from today I start my trek to New York City. There’s so much I want to get done before then but I have to remember this journey isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon. That and I have to be consistent and keep moving forward.


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